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[jesica]

I have been wanting to log on for a while now, but decided not to. I had a message in my facebook inbox from a member, so I decided that I would go ahead and do it.

Gosh, it's been.. a long time since I have been on. (Okay, I did ask an anonymous question within the last year.. haha, if anyone could guess which one it was I will laugh my ass off perpetually)

I am still living in Pittsburgh, and believe it or not, I am ready to go back to the country. I have had a taste of just sitting in silence, laying out at night looking up at the sky and it is SO much better than sirens every 5 minutes and weirdos walking around the streets. The downside is I have to wait until I graduate to move, because well, I live 2 minutes from my school and 5 minutes from the hospital so it would not make sense to move 45 minutes away. Although, I will have to work in Pittsburgh and commute.. yeah, that's going to suck, especially with our shitty winters.

I'm finishing up my 2nd out of 4 years of nursing school in August. It is definitely trying at times, learning to become a nurse that is. I know that it is what I want to do, but sometimes it is scary thinking about how important my job will be and the demands of the job against what the job should actually be. Stupid nursing shortage. In my dream world, there is a nurse for every patient. Unfortunately, that will never happen and us nurses will just keep on getting spread thinner and thinner. I completed my first med pass that consisted of meds being given to one patient in the morning and OMG.. its overwhelming to believe that one day I will be doing that for 5 or 6 patients in the amount of time it took me to do it for one. I could go on for days about nursing, but I'll spare you the time

I am actually the happiest I have been in my life, now that I am with the person I belong with. It's a long story but to make it shorter: best friend's brother, who I incessantly crushed on for my entire teenage years, and I got it on the night of her wedding, he moved back home to be closer, we were "whatever" for a few months, I was really happy and all of a sudden, he quit talking to me. Devastated, I moved on and found another guy, who seemed to be perfect for me at first. Although, I never stopped thinking about *him.* We were together almost 3 years and throughout our relationship, he would tell me things like "you should go to the gym" or "you should eat healthier," blah blah.. I am not one to really care what other people think and I just told him I'll do what I please. Well, fast forward to memorial day weekend, I go camping with my best friends family because that's what we do. I see her brother, it's awkward as it always is, but left me depressed as it always did, because I missed him a lot but didn't know what to say to him or anything. My exbf picks me up at best friends house and on the way home decides to tell me that I need to "make a lifestyle change because he knows that I gained 30 pounds since he met me and he is worried that if he marries me and we have kids, I'll never lose the baby weight." (for the record, I gained 10 pounds. over 3 years. OMG!!!) I, in shock, cry and try to get him to understand that it is wrong on so many levels, and he doesn't get it. So, I decide to break up with him the following day. Bam, 3 years, down the drain. Well, I decide to text *him* because, well, I miss him and all along I have wanted to be with him because he made me very happy. He says he would like to give us another try, and the reason he quit talking to me in the first place was that he was scared of the strong feelings he was having for me and he wasn't ready! ARE YOU KIDDING ME??

Anyways, all is good now. We have been together for almost 2 months, it's been the best 2 months of my life, even better than before. He makes me so happy. Unbelievably happy. We've talked about our futures and how they should be spent together (I wanted to be sure he could stick with me through my career choice.. I plan on getting my master's degree at some point and also, specializing in OR nursing.. so there will be LOTS of education in my future) and well, I'm anticipating an engagement either during our vacation next month or by the end of the year. I told him about how I never wanted to have a wedding but now I do, on his grandparent's farm. In our talking of our futures, we decided that we would like to get married after I graduate in 2012 & have some babies sometime after that.. I can hardly believe that my life has changed this much, this fast, but I am so content with how my life is unfolding.

I hope everyone has been having a great time within their own lives recently.

P.S. I also wanted retro to know I've been having the greatest sex ever. If I learned anything from her, it was to make sure you have great sex!! so thanks for all of your sex talk back in the day!!

[Like2spray]

Woah Jes, welcome back!!!!! I'm in Philly now, still.....been here over a year so far. Glad to hear you're doing good!

[Fruity]

Good to hear from you, again! Good to hear that everything is going so well

[jesica]

wow like.. philly?? that's awesome. i want to visit there, as i have never been.

thanks fruity i hope the same for you!!

[sprankified]

hey boo, i'm glad you're having excellent sex and with a good man who's not a dickhead.

AND good job with nursing!!! it's gonna be SO good to have that degree, i've considered going back since all the business areas of healthcare ask for a clinical degree. that will be really good for your future
also, are you still doing your show? probably no time for that now, huh.

[jesica]

thanks sprank!!

yes, the sex is soooo good. so good. like.. incomprehensibly good. haha, mind blowing and completely brain boggling good.

you should go back for nursing!! definitely! i go to nursing school (not the same as college) i will graduate with a diploma and i can keep going to get my bachelors, masters, whatever i want. after i pass nclex, i will be a registered nurse straight out of school, with diploma only! it's such a good oppurtunity to get in there and actually practice and then further my education, at my own pace. i'm sure there are nursing schools somewhere near where you live. there's actually a program at our local community college that is for rn, which i guess is pretty good (not as good as my school though.. something like 94% pass nclex first time!) but as i have said, i still have 2 years with a ton more to learn just in the program, plus TONS more to learn as a practicing nurse and continuing education. it's hard to comprehend how much nurses need to know.. somehow, they do it though!! i just haven't got it yet.. lol

nope.. no show, sadly. i get on my show's page every now and again, but i haven't been live in forever, at least 3 months. i miss those days fun times!!

[jesica]

well - i figured i'd update you guys here instead of starting a new thread.

i'm 15 weeks pregnant!! due july 13, 2011

complete suprise (okay i guess not really, since we all know how babies are made) but honestly, i'm happy. my boyfriend was more excited than i was when i told him, and he actually knew before i did!! i went for my first ultrasound yesterday and wow.. when you find out you are pregnant it's hard to believe it without visual proof. but then bam, there's a little tiny baby moving around on the screen, and then you are in love <3

unfortunately, this was supposed to happen AFTER i graduated, so i have to take 2 semesters off (i'm due in the middle and my school has STRICT policies on attendance) and then i want to stay home with the baby for a few months (i wanted to be a stay at home mom for 5 years) so i'll only be pushing my graduation date back by 8 months. no biggie. of course school will be a little harder with a baby, but i know i can do it

ps. does anyone know any sweet 1 syllable baby girl names that start with a??

[Bloody Cara]

Congrats on the pregnancy!!!

I've been looking at your Facebook pictures and in one of your profile pics, the black and white one, you look just like an old days' hollywood starlet!

[Like2spray]

Jes, I already told you but congrats again!! That is totally awesome, I know you'll be a great Mom! Btw this is not one syllable, but I'm keen on Ashley....

[Strawberry_Kisses]

OMG you are pregnant!! That is fantastic!!! Congrats hun!!

[Fruity]

Congratulations on the pregnancy! its wonderful news. I hope you stick around throughout it so we can share the journey.

The only one syllable name i can think of is Anne. I'll have to give is some more thought.

[jesica]

thanks everyone

we will find out gender on feb 28 (hopefully, that is!! babies tend to not want to show their parents LOL)

and.. its not one syllable but i have chosen ava - middle name still undetermined!! picking names is REALLY hard!

[Tequesian]

Never before has a post made me ravenous for cantaloupe

Congratulations on your soon to be Mommy-ness.

[Garrett]

Jes, if it's a lad, you should name it Michael; Michael's a fantastic name and I know some really handsome, happy people called Michael :P (Middle name = trousers)

So S-B I'm 20, nearly done with college, loving life (No more anti-depressants, either), the only thing missing from my life is a job! (I would say a girlfriend, too, but I'm not really interested in pursuing relationships). Also did anyone get Isaku on the S-B facebook group? I wanna see what kinda crazy facial hair the bearman is rocking these days