so i've been with my current boyfriend for... four months now. almost five. he's different from every other relationship i've had. he's quite mature because he has lived all over europe, so he's had to adapt quickly and actually is not a citizen of america. he has been with me through my eating disorder, including hospitalization, and over the summer, we were apart for a month and a half while he was in south africa, at home, studying for a course. our relationship thus far has been quite amazing.
however, recently, i find myself questioning if things are right. i respond the same to everything he does but there is always that little question in the back of my mind and it is pissing me off. i know that i want this relationship and yet, i can't help questioning it. this is around the point in time that most of my relationships either end or get scarily clingy and attached. is it natural for me to do this? what should i do about it?
heaven's not a place that you go when you die
it's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
so live for the moment
and take this advice, live by every word
love is just a hoax so forget everything that you have heard
Sounds like you're doing the whole self fulfilling prophecy thing. You don't feel you can have faith in the relationship... so eventually you won't.
I don't know if there is much you can actively do about it except try to relax and when that little voice pops up, try to distract yourself. Just try to sit back and enjoy the ride.
Your mind can only hold one thought at a time. Make it a positive and constructive one.
~ H. Jackson Brown Jr.
I find that i'm the same way. The first couple of months are great, and then I start to freak out, wonder if its really meant to be, and end up dumping them, or became so horrible that they dump me. I think I made a similar post about 3 years ago.
The best thing i can advise is try to stay rational. If a question comes up, actually think about it and come up with any logical reasoning to be questioning that. Maybe you'll realise its nothing, or maybe it is something and you shouldn't continue the relationship.
True beauty is an exchange, not an observation. - Lucid Rog
yeah i thought about this a lot over the weekend and the thoughts have all but disappeared.
i think most of it was that my hormones were fluxating madly because i was getting my period for the first time in 6 months and didn't take my prozac for three days, so my brain was completely out of whack. i feel so much better this week and today, we had a really good talk and night together.
so everything is mostly worked out pretty well.
heaven's not a place that you go when you die
it's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
so live for the moment
and take this advice, live by every word
love is just a hoax so forget everything that you have heard
Posting Permissions | Powered by Website Maintenance Labs Copyright ©2000 - 2009; Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.Search Engine Optimization by vBSEO 3.5.2 |
LinkBack URL
About LinkBacks
Reply With Quote
Bookmarks