Thread: I feel like a fool..

Hi Everyone and thanks for reading!!

I have this male best friend, who has been my best friend for about three years now, but I've known him for five. I've liked him as more than a friend since my sophomore year in high school, and I am now a sophomore in college. I had a boyfriend all through high school, but he and I had a mutual break up right before college.

Long story short, college wasn't going so well for me. A lot of the people I'd met there had been letting me down, so I leaned on my best guy friend over Skype and phone calls and eventually we'd gotten together to watch movies and then a friend of his told me he had feelings for me. I honestly thought I was going to cry because I'd been holding in such strong feelings for him for a long time. We started "talking", told all of our friends.. blah blah blah. Then I went to visit him, we fooled around a little, but he was PERFECT. He was sweet, funny, and everything I'd ever hoped he'd be in a relationship.

A few weeks later, he stops texting me so much. He doesn't really respond to when I text him. Eventually thanksgiving rolls around, and he texts me and basically says "This is too weird for me." There wasn't any explanation or anything. Over Christmas break, he tried to hook up with a good friend of mine, and she denied him and told me about it which resulted in he and I arguing. I basically said he used me and he admitted that he did a terrible thing to me and our friendship. Then I spilled my guts, and things seemed okay.

We didnt talk most of second semester, his choice, not mine. Then when the semester was almost over, he starts skyping and texting me again. Asking to hang out and stuff.. asking why we don't talk anymore. So we get back home, and hang out with friends and stuff. Saturday night he had a party at his house, and everyone there was a little more than a little drunk. We were having a great night though, we were best friends and laughing and being stupid like we ALWAYS had been. And then he lets me and a friend sleep in his bed because we couldn't drive home and after my friend and I pass out, he comes up there and starts touching me, and fooling around with me. We make out and fool around for a few minutes and he tells me to meet him in a different room so we can have sex.

I may have been drunk, and so was he, but I woke up my friend and asked her what to do and she grumbled so I decided I would just go talk to him, and when I got there he acted as if nothing happened. And the next morning, he acted as if nothing happened. He still acts as if nothing happened, and he acts as though we never had that "almost relationship" from last semester either.

What should I do? He's one of my best friends, and it's clear to ALL of my other friends and my family that I'm in love with him. I've been able to date and like other people but I always go back to him, or think about him. To me, he's ideally who I want to spend all of my time with. I adore his family, and we have all the same friends. He's just perfect, aside from the fact that he's confusing me to no end.

Please tell me what I should do or why he's acting this way. Clearly talking with him doesn't work this out, I need a plan, or something!

Thank you:]